Musical feelings?

The notion of learning music in depth was something that I seek. I have always easoly touched and moved by songs and sonetimes just music without lyrics.

I always wanted to understand the gist of the musical form and meaning but have never seriously pursue it. After all, I did fell in love with a person of musical background once.

It interest me how music can actually make me very sad and down and forces me to cry even though its just a mix of harmonics. How people would actually write poetry and make songs out of it due to the overflowing emotion that they have. This signifies the role and power of music to a persons life.

I want to be at the center of that, where I will be able to understand the message conveyed by a composer and be a composer who conveys my ideas and emotions through music.

To a start of a new journey.

Sympathy or busybody?

This is the first time that I've ever written a blog for years. Think of this as a diary of myself so that I won't be stupid to repeat my mistakes and people won't follow my footsteps.

I tend to find myself being too involved in other people's problems. I find myself always trying to get close to them and solve their problems.

While it may be helpful to the people that I try to help at times, I think that it really drains me of my energy. I, myself could not solve my own problems and I get my shoes wet solving others'.

The question is whether I really am sincere in helping them, or am I just an actor, a person who looks for chances to be good to others for a hidden reason.

How far will I go to help others, before I drown myself in my own mistakes?